Had you ever a day - a good day - some of that kind you wanted sooo long ?
You enjoyed this day ... and this day turned out to get the worst day ?
Yesterday i had one ...
Best day of year and same time it turned out to be the worst ... strangest day of the year.
When the beloved one cares out to be nice and kind - seems to care and seems to be there for me. As i wished for several Weeks.
And lateron turned out to betray and lie to me. Broke promises and doesnt seems to care that i got hurt - while downplaying all that things that happened ...
I thought we went thru all this - and worked over it - i thougth we solved it ... and we found a way to trust each other....
Its a hard time 4 me ... even without this shit. To lose the beloved one... to have weeks(?) without. And always to accept the bad things and always to be nice and kind.... once in a while theres enough. i cant take more.